love in dream

“love in dream”

Written by Muhammad Amin

The dew was still dampen the grass under the bright sun this morning. the birds were singing as if showing something different, the air shown fear and disinclination to some young human at that time. However, most of them shown their fangs and  anger were bubbling up became a King. Education as if  became a military school.  that was happening in my  school this morning, All  new students have to come at six in the morning according to the announcement attached on the bulletin board in this school. A large clock attached on the wall above  the door signing that new students must pay the attention of  time which were they should came on time based on the announcement on the bulletin board.

Amir was the chairman of the committee of  the students orientation, he gave instruction to the  other committees to organize students who have came to the Hall, to sit on  the seat that have been prepared while they were waiting for the other  new students. He was standing proudly in front of the door, his face shown wises, hard, arrogant and  no slightest smile, one by one the new students come  into the Hall. their head bowed when they were meeting their senior but a few  students who met their senior regardless of their attitude, they did everything what they like without thinking about attitude and respect for their senior but the committee could not do anything because the day was the first day of students orientation, they still haven't been able to advised them.  moreover, angry to them. The time was 8 a.m. and all students have been  sitting neatly like a soldier who have ready to  received a military education from his commander, amir stood onstage among the other committees.

Amir introduced all the committee to the participants, his eyes shown wises, all the participant were listening the introduction carefully after the introduction from amir. it continued by reading the rules of the  student, what they should do or what shouldn't do. Every new students should  listen the rules without  taking note. they should memorized every single word who have been mentioned by amir, after the memorize the rules, amir will give the question related to the rules and  the rules red in two languages that were Indonesia language and English. “ do you understand ?” amir said. “Yes I am” they replied together. Well if you already understood, I will give you five minutes to discuss with your friend and memorize it. Amir continued.

The space became boisterous.  the students were discussing with their friend, Their face have seen as if they already answered Amir's question . Some of them were quiet, and others shown that they have  memorized  the rules and they  have seen confusion but there  were some participants even didn’t understand anymore what Amir explained.  The time was running quickly, time was up for them to discuss.” I will point one of you to stand up on the stages and you must answer my question correctly but  if the answer is wrong, you all will get the punishment. Are you  ready” amir said. The room was really noisy after amir mentioned the punishment and even there were student stand up and speak  loudly.” Brother, it’s not really really fair”. "ok. I'll explain to you, the purpose of this rules is in order to all of you respect each other, and can called, one for all, and all for one” amir explained.  they  want or not, the participants should received that rule, the activity was running  very well. sometimes student can answer the question and the other session they could not answer based on the rules who had agreed each other, all student will get the punishment and they did it. In the second session the participant has chance to ask questions related to their study in this school. Almost new students asked question, They were really enthusiastic to ask a question, showing to their senior that they were smart, they were critic and  shown  their knowledge that they got in their previous  school. 

Integration continuing with fierce, there was even a loud voice to refute regulation of student orientation who made by the committee. Not feels,  time off arrived, all the participants were invited for lunch and prayers in little mosque for religious Muslims and committee did the evaluation and briefing for the next session. The room became quiet and silent, no sound that enliven the room except the sound of an assertive and authoritative. Amir instructed the others Committee about what they should do and avoid in the next  activities.

However, the discussion did not focus on what amir's head, but there were committees which did not agree with any of the rules  and a debate among them occurred, the sound and the emotion come up higher and higher between them as if show a bad atmosphere but amir's a policy can dilute the atmosphere and provide the solution of any dispute and disagreed of the other Committee. Then after the meeting was done,  some of Committees conducted preparatory preoccupied for the next activity after the break. Everything is ready, all the committees go to pray and  some of them  go to canteen for breakfast.
 The Clock have showed 1: 00 committee was  ready on their own place and duties. The participants directed to go to the place which have prepared, Participant's voice filled the room, suddenly there was a voice from the back of the participants with chants of a very hard and sound scary “ could you all shut up!” all the participant look at him “  without any reason he continued “ what do you want  actually, you could not respect to your senior anymore ?, we all here give our time to train you, to teach you in order to you understand about education that you will face later” we teach you the right things, do not teach you to chit chat and do not respect to the older. Remember you're still prospective students, you are not official students yet in this school, try to understand and appreciate each of you, especially the elderly, your parents worked hard, raising money with a thousand and two thousand.  It is just because of you, they want you to be smart person  in order to you get the best education but your attitude did not show that, you are not smart and even you like chicks who loses their parents”. Said amir. All the participants blow their head and even some of them was crying. 

He made all the participants astonished and really feel what he said, brief talk of  amir finished and atmosphere being silent. the air seemed taking some of them to the heaven even to the hell, their cries were not sure even some innocent seeming to laugh, but laugh not succumbing to silence them. Withered, even dry like a tree that has no water. All students went  home and their face were not yet shown the happiness because tomorrow will still bring them on fear. 
the Patter in the courtyard were singing cheerfully, jumping here and there, it's hard to say something in-understandable. their footstep a little bit embarrassed, with fear, stepping slowly through all their senior as if there is no happiness, no tolerance, no negotiation, moreover discussion. Committees decision were decisions that can only be implemented and no need to disputed even more questionable. Following was the  only a single option to them, truth is necessity, error was a great sin what they need to face if they try to break the rules.  they will be faced the punishment.  Injustice pervaded the entire contents of the participants head, smothering their resentment but meaningless. their strength meant nothing, questions began popping up in their minds. How if the committee did something wrong, committee never wrong, if the committee did something wrong back to the article 1.  The article 1, the committee never wrong.  patience was a single choice that must be done by all participants.  The second day was the day where the whole participants will got a test of mental and intellectual in order to they are ready to face the challenging of learning in that school because this school was a school that was setting out  attitude and  intellectual, in addition students must be smart in terms of education they must have a good personality and capable of mutual respect in society. 
As usual the participants had to sit neatly in the place that already Prepared by the committee although there were some participants who came late and they have accepted the punishment. those who arrived late must be cleaned the trash around  of the school. Microphone was screaming sound destruction and fear. This time amir was standing in front of the participants gave brief remarks and a little direction for the day's activities. all eyes are on him, not only the eyes, the wind had come to blowing him. In the middle of his speech he saw some of students were playing and did not listen  what amir said.  "says: You !!!” amir hand led one of the students. sputtered the students answered “ me.. brother” replied the new students, his name is Rian.  “ yes, you. Stand up” amir replied with loudly. All eyes were on him, stammered and confusing face, rian stood. “repeat what I just mentioned” asked amir.  Rian bow her head, everything was silent no sound heard except the sound of the speakers echoed,  “ why do you just keep silent” said amir. "why...?,  when I am speaking, you also speak but when I ask you  to speak, you keep  silent” amir’s voice got higher and full of emotion. “ what do you want actually, you lead to be smart and insightful but you just can acted like smart person”, sit down amir said. Amir finished his speech.

This time the student in a test of knowledge aimed to looking for students who were intelligent, broad-minded, and noble character, they were  given a quiz and some questions, its questions contain natural science, social science, mathematics, English language, and the question form of logical thinking. Firstly, they were given an education game to build up their mind, a harmonious, and friendly atmosphere. But beside educational games, the participants did not escape from less educated game, their hands tied with a rope. they had to made ​​up shaped flowers. Not only the hands but also their feet which should be shaped necklace  even their heads. they have to make it as creative as possible. After an hour passed, it's time for them to answer the questions that have been provided, the atmosphere became silent participants should concentrate to answering questions that will be given by the committee, all head were bow and pen or pencil has begun to carve his ink. No one dared to interrupt her as before, Amir already explained that none of the questions were ambiguous, confusing meant if your ability was still low. He said.

After they finished answering the questions given. time had already showed that the break time came up and it became the end of the student orientation , all participant invited to break and can walk around the school.  Susi dan amir did chit chat in the room, suddenly susi said,” brother could you see that girl, her resemble to lila” .”which one” amir reply. That is, the girl who always bow her head. Somehow amir took a  scissors next to her and give the scissor.” the student orientation finished” amir said. That girl took the scissors while bowed his head.  “ what is your name?” amir said, “ my name is wati” the girl reply. “Where did you study before” amir continued “ mas raudatul ulum malang ” wati reply with her java dialect which  was very strong. “Where did you live here?” amir said “ I live on borneo street”  wati reply. “emm do you know lila” wati was smiling and answer “ she is my sister, brother”  amir stop for a minute  “that is why your face look like lila”,  he said.

accompanied with a smile on his lips. Amir asked for wati’s phone number and their

relationship began from here, every day amir always send a short message to  wati, and   wati did a same thing,  always send a short message just to say hello to him and asked what he is doing in his boarding house.  they are getting close and amir more convinced that wati was a woman who sent by God to accompany his life today and forever. Time has been running for so long until wati joined as members of  schoolor organization , amir and wati always met, but their meeting just a stare the face and there was never any serious discussion between them. Very different if they were talking on the phone, his love was getting crazy and crazier , he thought, his love to wati  was everything, almost every  break  time ,Amir visited  wati’s class although just for looking her face or just want to know what happened to her. One day Amir came to wati and delivered  his feeling, wati refused it, the reason is, they just know each other but he always  asked wati to be his girlfriend, at the end wati said yes. amir was really really happy, Amir followed an  extracurricular activity , when was the activity almost finished Amir ‘s phone was ringing but he did not see it because of the school rules, every student not allowed to use phone on school activity.

After school, Amir out of the school gate, and he saw wati, a short massage in amir’s phone was from wati, she asked amir to take her home. This is the first day amir  can take Wati home,  the happiness in amir’s hearts depicted with a smile that did not stop of  his face.  After he take wati home, amir go home through a halte suddenly he saw a girl, her name is wenda, she was amir friend when she was in junior high school, amir stopped his motorcycle in front of wenda and said “ wenda do you want to go home? Wenda “ yes i do”. Just go with me” and wenda agree they will go home together, both of them live in the same village, when wenda sit behind amir, there is wati’s sister came in front of them, automatically saw them, amir want not to guess what will happen letter without  think much and difficult thing, he started his motorcycle and go home.

The Rain start to coming down, amir and wenda should stop wait the rain finished, amir’s phone was ringing again, when was he look it, it was wati” now you are not mine anymore” wati said, the confusing fill in all of his mind why she sent a massage like this?, “is there something wrong with me?” amir talk by him self,  amir really really disappointed,  He tried ask wati what was actually happen, “ please, apologize me if I did a mistake to you, don’t just keep silent like this, please explain to me?” He said.  Amir’s life getting worse and worse, he can not control his feeling even his life, his study, and his relationship. Amir did not have power take his love again, he just stay in that possession . “ I really love you, I will do everything for you even I should die, I will do for you” he said by himself again and again.  Love need relation, cannot stand alone, willingness mean nothing if there was no chance but the dream never end. amir thought that wati will not believe him again, although he really love wati, all those things was useless.

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